Xian.

So, you know how we have Xmas.... that's because X is the latin symbol for christ (as I understand) sooo..... Christians become Xians. I thought that was cool, and it gave my blog a title.

But now the real blog, some of you may have noticed my shirt today (probably not) but it's like something from some fund raiser called a bible run. I think there is a crucifix and a bible on the back of it.
And I personally don't go to church, don't get me wrong I'm a very spiritual person but I don't think I will find my own salvation by going to church. But I always get such reactions when I wear this shirt that make me ashamed to wear it; like people at school who are into the bible scene occasionally(and sincerely) comment on my shirt like "Oh man, that's so awesome. Where'd you get it?" And one time I was even the target of a beggar because of it. Anyways today at the bank an elderly gentleman commented on the shirt saying how it's nice to see young people getting involved with their church...OMG!
I felt like such a jerk for wearing it. I'm not going to lie to any of you, I had bought it maybe two years ago at value village and I was just like "Oh shit son, this shirt is amazing, and it would be terribly ironic for me to get it, man."
But anyways I feel guilty for wearing it, but at the same time, I like wearing it because its comfy and not atrociously horrible looking.

So....February

So... what happened to February, I mean I know it's supposed to be the shortest month and all but this is just ridiculous, it just seemed to fly by in a stream of due dates and assignments and frankly I'm glad February is over, it needs to be over because its been a stress filled month and I'm hoping with March and it's spring break I may have some time to relax...
between online chemistry, ISU essay and whatever sadistic projects my teachers will have instore for me then.

Oh also as a side note, one of the few things I did for R&R over February was watch an anime OVA (Original Video animation... they're pilot episode/movie in most cases) and it was dubbed horribly, which is probably because it was dubbed in the early to mid 1990's .... anyways the one line was "Wow! It's not everyday I get to meet ninjas who are also demon slayers." I nearly keeled over at the horribly lame dialogue.
Oh another R&R I did was... I "prowled around K-town" (as a friend of mine would put it) and I ended up at... ASSI which is a Korean/Japanese grocery store... its a triangle of a building.... that was fun.

Sweet Day

Today, was SUCH a great day. I'm very pleased with it for many reasons and I thought I'd list them:
We got some work done in philosophy(that never happens and my mark really could easily be improved if I did more work;
I got my english presention over with (and I don't think it was too painfully bad);
I got to see this guy who I have had the biggest crush on since the begining of last year (but I was too shy to talk to him, and drama folks.... it isn't Brad Cook.);
I got to take part in some really cool breath excersises in drama class (this was Brad Cook);
I got some more posters and crap from my brother (he's moving out soon);
I am almost done a workable outline for my final ENG essay (I was having such a problem with that);
I found out that the one girl who I worked with and <3 got her job back!!!!!!!

I'm sure there were other things but these are what stand out. ^_^

But on the reverse side I started my online chemistry course.... that system is so confusing, and I have trouble sitting infront of a computer and leaning from reading large blocks of text, and chemistry doesn't come easy for me.

Grade 12

So, I thought I'd post on how I'm liking gr 12 so far. And so far I'm liking it; I mean teachers - treating you as equals and with respect. When did that happen? Definitely not in other grades.

And ok, another favourite part of grade 12 is 5th year students, I know it sounds absolutely ridiculous but let me explain. There are a specific few 5th year students who I have class with and am now friends with, or well at least more than acquaintances with, who are now my peers who last year I idolized and had up on a pedestal and saw as godly older kids and now they're my peers and we joke around and have meaningful conversations with where not knowing them as well last year from not having classes with them I would have naturally shyed away from much covnersation. I don't think everyone's grade 12 experience has been quite the same because a lot of this connection of the 5th year students comes from Drama class but it's really quite amazing.
I think that this realization for me is good (not just for me but for people in general) because it like enforces that people are people are people are people irregardless of whether you've put them up on a pedestal in your head or not, so it like can eliminate getting over that stuff in the future. Liiiikkeee...... "wow, you're the district manager, we're not even in the same league, I am afraid to say something stupid so I'll just keep quiet".
I'm not sure if that made any sense but it did in my head so I supose if as the writer I understand what I was trying to communicate that's all that matter. (NOT!)

Boys, Boys, Boys

So this is my blog about boys, why because it can be also because of an encounter I had the other day. But thats for laaaatterrr.....
SO I've decided boy's are like candy. Pretty much awesome, and you can never have enough it (ok maybe eventually) and everyone has a favourite. LOL. Also I mean this is the most non-explicit manner. Also, like candy most boys are bad for you (except apples, nature's candy).

Anyways the encounter that has me thinking about boys happened when I saw a mysterious guy lurking in the halls, and my initial thoughts were "damn, he's cute. But waaaaiittt..... a little old to be a student, and far too young to be a teacher. Anyways maybe hes here from another school and hes one of them fancy city kids who look older." Then he started talking to me, and I won't put in our entire convo but he had a totally mysterious aura to him that was undescribable. Ok I lied, I'll put some of our conversation.
Me: My ride is here. Bye
Him: Wait before you go, what is your name?
Me: Traci
Him: It was nice meeting you Traci
Me: You too, I'm sorry what was your name?
Him: Most people call me Wilson.
Me: Well it was nice meeting you, Wilson.

PS: Boys, like candy if they're really bad for you will go straight to your thighs. LOLz OMG JK.... Don't worry about it ^_~

Optimistic change?

Ok, so yesterday I was one of the 'lucky' people who got to judge the grade 9 science fair. I felt so brain dead after the fact, all I could do is just stare at the well blankly for the rest of the day. It's not because the projects were bad, but marking them was painful on the brain and after relying on a calculator for years in math and physics doing simple addition proved to be quite the challenge without a calculator, also it was nearly two hole periods of marking them. o_o *twitch*
But to get to the optimistic part of it, nearly all the projects were well done and showed effort, and seriously, a couple of them I don't think I couldv'e done even now. So I was really impressed with that.
Another thing that really impressed me reccently is that last tuesday my friend returned me the game "elebits" and me being the total airhead that I sometimes am forgot t, in a clasrooom for a week, and to my pleasant surprize it was still there a week later. Kudos to you W-O!

Dreams

I thought I'd post about dreams, and more particularily the one I had.... last night. Dreams are really freaky things. Things happen in dreams and its all so significant but when you try to tell someone about it; they never understand. Dream's are definately a marvel of the brain, and it's so weird how dreams can be linked to deja vu when you're like standing around and you realize that everything you're seeing you've seen in a dream before. Or that atleast happens to me and I know it seems to happen to other people too......
Lucid dreams are insane, I mean I wish I knew that I was dreaming, but I never know its a dream until its over. And I guess a lot of people dream in black and white, I've alway remembered dreaming it color, dreaming in black and white would be soo.... bland.
So last night my dream was an elaborate story or love, decception, betrayal aaaaaaaand.... the oposite of betrayal. I'm not going to even attempt to type out the events because it was filled with plot holes and non-sense. But the basic outline of the dream was like... one of those movies where two people fall in love, one person fucks it up and the shit hits the fan, and then they redeem themselve's and true love conquers all.
Also I find re-occurring dreams to be so interesting. Not sure why....

Funny Story

Ok, so this is non fiction story of what actually happened to me last week. Its funny, and I think it will provide further insight into the strange relationship me and my brother have.
My brother had noticed that I really don't know anything about macs (I freaked out when all the programs minimized); so he decided to teach me all the awesome things that mac's can do.
And he was showing me all these features and then he showed me the workstations (if you don't know what they are, its not vital to the story) and then he pointed to the one and hes like "and see I called that one pr0n, where I watch pron so when you or mom walk in the room I can change workstations" and I just freaked out and Im like "Ok, I DID NOT NEED TO HEAR THAT!" and he's like "I watch porn, this isn't the first time you've found out." and disgusted I said to him "gah! I don't need reminders O_O!" and hes like "just for that, I'm going to remind you every month that I like to watch porn."

.... my brother is strange folk.