English Essay

So I'm working on my ISU English essay (procrastinating right now, actually :) )
And I was editing all my Literate references out of past tense, and it's really making me depressed.
Let me explain why, the Literary proof I was using was about this man who IS depressed and Kills himself. I had put that he was depressed and did kill himself, which is slightly more cheerful that the correct version. Why?
Because in the correct version he is like a ghost who is forced to go over his most despairing life over and over again, trapped forever; perpetually killing himself but never dying.
It's actually reminding my of this one Red Maple book I read in grade 8 called Stones, if any of you would have read it. Where this Woman from Haiti is brutally murdered and is haunting the area where she is killed, forever stuck in limbo and she is forced to relive her brutal murder every night.
So writing my essay with infinite participle (lol, I don't think it's actually called that) makes it seem as though the man is stuck with the same fate.
Although really... I'm just being dramatic/overly poetic because both character are just characters from stories and are not real and never have and never will have to suffer being so depressed that you kill yourself or being brutally murdered.
Anyways, I've procrastinated on my essay long enough that it is time to go to work.